Why I started this blog

As of today, its been about a year since I started my recovery from burnout. A year since I hit ‘delete’ on my to do list, and blew up my life as I knew it. I’ve done a lot of thinking. Decompressing. It’s been great. I have slowly unravelled from a period of overwork that I now see lasted the best part of five years. They say there is no substitute for time, and unfortunately for us Type-A’s, that really is true. The irony that the hardest thing of all is actually doing nothing. For ‘doer’s’ this is excruciating. After…

The problem with goal setting

I love goal setting. LOVE it. Big picture thinking comes easily to me, and I could do it all day, every day. Dreaming big, imagining success and setting tasks for myself to achieve them is pure bliss. I’m learning however, that goal setting has a dark side. Setting goals and working towards them comes naturally, and helps move me towards a happier life, but it also feeds my perfectionism and tendency to burnout on everything that I do. I don’t like these things about myself, and I’d much rather bury them deep in my subconscious. But they are important to…

Coming home nearly killed me, but I wouldn’t change it for a second

Almost two years have passed since my husband and I repatriated home to Australia – a move I had looked forward to for years – yet never imagined it would push me to the brink of a breakdown. Ten years in London, gone in the blink of an eye. We didn’t have to come back of course, but there was a yearning we’d both felt over the years, a pull that had increased with the start of each new one. Wanting to start a family well into our thirties played a part no doubt, and having a baby in a…

The day we drove to the country and bought a house

If you told me one year ago that I would voluntarily want to live outside of a major city, I would have laughed in your face. And if you also told me that I’d want to buy a house and settle down for a while – in the country – I would be seriously questioning your mental state, and wondering what mind altering substance you were on to make you believe such a thing. But, alas, you would have had the last laugh. Because a couple of weeks ago we drove out to a regional city, about an hour from…

So it begins…

Hello there! Welcome to Always In The Deep End. I’m Nicole and I’m a writer. Well, I want to be a writer you see. I’ve been writing for YEARS in one form or another – Creative writing at school, Masters essays in my former life as a Scientist and some travel and health blogs I experimented with back when blogging was semi-cool, semi-weird. The thing is, I’ve never really stuck with writing over the long term. It’s been a recurring theme throughout my life and something I’ve always loved doing since I was a kid… but for whatever reason my practice…